well, i am forcing myself to post here instead of any of the following places:
http://www.suicidegirls.com/girls/le/
http://www.livejournal.com/~suicidele
http://elly.diaryland.com

there is probably some other diary that i've signed up for and forgotten about.

i keep saying i want to try and post all in one place, but i don't know about that really. i kind of like scattering posts across the world. i've upheld the idea that this journal on my site will be for the "real" writing, but reality is a sketchy concept.

i was going to come post about the wonderful salad i just made for myself, but i don't want to anymore. that makes me think about jenni of jennicam.com who now only posts about her pets and what she her hubby planted in the garden over the weekend. even though her journals speak nothing of her feelings about anything anymore, i sense sadness when i read them. perhaps it is my own sadness at the loss of the seemingly happy and exuberant woman she once portrayed on her site.